Quarantine for me has been nothing short of the most intense emotional roller coaster of my entire life. Being sent home from college, the place where I truly felt independent and surrounded by so many people that I loved, seemed like the absolute end of the world. As I drove home alone, to the city that I had finally escaped, I got an email saying that instead of closing the campus for two weeks, it was going to be for the whole semester. Those “see you laters” turned into “see you who knows when, if ever again,” and I was once again pulled back into the walls of the town that I had always been so ready to run from. The people that I had lived with and grown with and learned with for the past 7 months were just ripped away from me like that. I was absolutely gutted. I could literally see my world coming crashing down. The first week of quarantine was quite possibly my least favorite week ever. I did absolutely nothing, and basically mourned the life that was never going to be given back to me.
Then gradually, over time, I realized something. I have never once in my life given myself time to stop and reflect upon it. My mind is always in a constant state of worry and anxiety about the future. Once I complete everything that needs to be completed, that means it’s time to continue planning and progressing as a human being, because true rest does not exist. That is what society has molded us into thinking. Never stopping is what’s necessary to be a successful person. Well that is dead wrong. During this time of nothingness, I have been able to see things so much more clearly. My opinion on the entire situation has completely changed. I am so thankful for this time I have right now, because I have really been able to figure some things out. No, I may not have been utterly productive and have a physical example of work to show for it, but I have made changes in myself that will benefit me for the rest of my life. I genuinely don’t know when these realizations would have come upon me had I not been in quarantine. Whenever it may be that we can all be back in reality, I know I will be ready for it.
So I compiled a little list in my journal of some little things that I have come to especially enjoy during this time right now. I do not wish to throw these away once real life commences. I hope to implement these into my real life and really understand that it’s ok to slow down once in a while, even if the world around you continues to spin. Truly being in the moment is something we never, ever do nowadays. I have always been constantly caught up preparing for the future, that I can guarantee that I have missed some of the most important things right in front of me. Shoutout to Professor Rodiguez, my amazing philosophy professor, for helping me to see that and strive for those moments where we are truly present in ourselves.
P.S. Excuse my handwriting and (at times) spelling lol. I am just a kid and I was writing in my journal.
“If you don’t know who Ella Fields is by now, you must be living under a rock!”
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We had this idea to not only share the work of our favorite artists, but also the people who support us. Every Thursday we hope to feature three new artists who have submitted their work to us via email. These are the first three, we hope you enjoy.
Thank you so much for checking these artists out. We are so excited to give other people a platform to share their work. If you are interested in submitting your own pieces, email us at email@example.com. Be sure to write us a few paragraphs about you and your work. We are looking forward to seeing what you have to show us.
I’m Andi Aguilar, and you’re watching Disney Channel. This is a look into some of my childhood thoughts and shenanigans. It might remind you of being a kid, or maybe I was just weird and you didn’t do any of these things idk. Read the article to find out.
I’M SICK OF HIDING ALL MY THOUGHTS! A journal is here to listen. I need to use it…damn!
This is something I sat and contemplated doing because a journal is something so personal and beautiful full of secrets and stories just for yourself. But I felt like it would be really cool to just share a few, less personal parts of my journal. This article will include collages I’ve done, things I’ve drawn and a little pieces I wrote about no one in particular. Enjoy these little snippets of my life through my eyes.
So that is all. I’ve given up a small piece of me that I haven’t had the courage to share before. It feels weird but exciting. A lot of these pieces were made by a younger more naive version of myself. Its strange to look back on who I once was and what I believed would come out of my life (and how wrong I was).
Writing about your feelings and your life is something so special. I highly encourage everyone to do it. You can write about anything. It’s so therapeutic. I bought this journal back in 2016 and there are still so many pages to be filled, it was always so hard for me to do it. But it has now become such an important part of my day. Every night I sit alone, with my favorite playlist on, writing all my feelings out or even drawing them. It’s one space you can truly be your self. NO judgement, NO fear, just you and everything you have to say.
Howdy y’all, Andi here. This is the first part in my ongoing series, “The Story of an Image.” In a world where everything is so public and everything seems to belong to everyone, we have these moments frozen in time that only we who experienced them can truly understand. The story behind an image will mean something different to every individual, and that’s what makes it so special. It is ours and ours only to hold on to, and no one can take that away from us. Here is just a snippet into a story behind one of my images. I hope you enjoy.
and on that note, this is the end. just for now of course, i’ll be back next tuesday with a ton more new things to say! in your down time during this quarantine i hope that you can find some time to check some of these movies out if you haven’t seen them (which a majority of you probably have seen them but it’s okay). that’s all i have to say. see you all next week. peace out!